Chill out, Mel. 

I need to repeat this phrase to myself more often, especially when things start to become bigger deals in my head than they actually are. As I’m coming closer to graduating, I feel like I no longer am in the mood to ‘go out’, or ‘party’ as much. Last night I went to support Ben at his senior recital for saxophone (which he rocked) and then went to Dukum for 30 minutes to see Becca, Michelle, and Courtney. I sipped on a water the whole time, and my legs felt awful. I wonder if perhaps I pulled something, because even today they’re giving me trouble by aching and being incredible sore. Anyway, that’s not the point.

Today was Becca’s boyfriend Josh’s senior recital, at 2 pm. I had agreed to go yesterday, but last night didn’t fall asleep until 3 am, and was feeling generally gross. I told her today that I was sorry, but due to how my body was feeling, I wasn’t going to be coming today. And WO-AH did I get a major brush-off from her! I’m so glad I’m learning more about my communication style and how to deal with these kinds of petty issues (since, ya know, Josh isn’t even my friend and barely even attempts to interact with me when I am around them, despite Becca labeling me as her ‘best friend’ to everyone…well, she kinda calls every friend she has around her ‘bestie’). I’m really glad with my decision to be honest about how I was feeling and not suffering through that whole awkward recital whilst feeling poopy just so I didn’t ‘let down’ a boy who doesn’t even care to have my friendship in the first place. I do care about Bec, but she’s on her own in this one. I personally wouldn’t dream of putting up with a guy who told me that I couldn’t spend one night away from him, obsessed about where I was and who I was with, and thought it was ‘wrong’ of me to have a girls night out after spending the entire day with him and his family.