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Happy Earth Day! 

hmm..

kind of ‘over it’. haha

dear sub-conscious..

Why on earth did you conjure up this dream last night!? I had a very memorable dream involving a student communication student, whom I don’t even know personally. Mind you this dream wasn’t romantic, but it was just weiiiiiird. Now I feel like I know this person, and I don’t! ahhh.

holy meatballs!

Even though I don’t have cable television at home, I still find ways to watch my favorite shows online. Mostly, I watch Lost, The Office, and The Real Housewives series from Bravo! TV. I recently started watching the Housewives from New Jersey after my mom suggested it to me; she told me that the women from this series were the most ‘real’ that she’d seen on reality television. Knowing our shared interest in human psychology and reality television, I immediately checked it out. 

These women are really something else. There’s Theresa, Dina, Jaqueline, Danielle, and Caroline. It’s the first season where two of the housewives are actually related, Jaqueline and Caroline are both sisters and sisters-in-law, based on the fact that they married two brothers. Jaqueline is married to the third brother from said family, and Theresa is a long-time family friend. Of course, being from NJ, they’re all Italian. Danielle is newest to the bunch and the catalyst for many of the show’s dramatic moments, based on her sketchy past and involvement in prostitution, cocaine abuse, and multiple arrests (based on a book that was written about her by her ex-husband. Danielle denies about 85% of the claims, saying that she only was arrested and changed her name.

During the season finale all the women gathered together with their families for a last supper. After some mild verbal accusations were thrown around about Danielle’s book and which one of the housewives had revealed it on national television, this went down http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OXCet3ekQ0E 

Honestly, I think the way Theresa handled the incident was pretty damn cool. Since I deal with not being able to fully express my feelings through communication I found it amazing that she was able to get so angry, tell Danielle exactly how she felt, release that anger without hurting anyone, and move on with her life. I loved how the women just accepted the incident because she was a ‘feisty italian’. Now, I don’t think it’s acceptable to just go around flipping tables every time you get upset, but I should be able to get upset, deal with my anger in the moment instead of holding it in, and then move on with my life! It would save me a lot of internal conflict and holding in emotions.

And who says we can’t all learn a little something from reality television?

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tulips at the st. louis zoo. take me back, please.

Chill out, Mel. 

I need to repeat this phrase to myself more often, especially when things start to become bigger deals in my head than they actually are. As I’m coming closer to graduating, I feel like I no longer am in the mood to ‘go out’, or ‘party’ as much. Last night I went to support Ben at his senior recital for saxophone (which he rocked) and then went to Dukum for 30 minutes to see Becca, Michelle, and Courtney. I sipped on a water the whole time, and my legs felt awful. I wonder if perhaps I pulled something, because even today they’re giving me trouble by aching and being incredible sore. Anyway, that’s not the point.

Today was Becca’s boyfriend Josh’s senior recital, at 2 pm. I had agreed to go yesterday, but last night didn’t fall asleep until 3 am, and was feeling generally gross. I told her today that I was sorry, but due to how my body was feeling, I wasn’t going to be coming today. And WO-AH did I get a major brush-off from her! I’m so glad I’m learning more about my communication style and how to deal with these kinds of petty issues (since, ya know, Josh isn’t even my friend and barely even attempts to interact with me when I am around them, despite Becca labeling me as her ‘best friend’ to everyone…well, she kinda calls every friend she has around her ‘bestie’). I’m really glad with my decision to be honest about how I was feeling and not suffering through that whole awkward recital whilst feeling poopy just so I didn’t ‘let down’ a boy who doesn’t even care to have my friendship in the first place. I do care about Bec, but she’s on her own in this one. I personally wouldn’t dream of putting up with a guy who told me that I couldn’t spend one night away from him, obsessed about where I was and who I was with, and thought it was ‘wrong’ of me to have a girls night out after spending the entire day with him and his family.

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petals

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I simply adore blossom trees in spring

I just spend 2 hours lounging in the warm sun, playing Keane on the ipod, loving it.